A Case of Severe Mental Abuse

 (Revised on 8-06-2024)

I have been through hell trying to deal with my family situation in the past twenty years, especially around 2003 and through the past three years. I have recently been more fully facing and standing up against the most severe abuses in my family, for the first time in my life. Its been a VERY painful situation, especially since my father recently died in the trenches of it.
   I feel that what happened to me, in my family, is a story that must be shared, for the sake of the safety and well being of all victims of this sort of thing, including myself.
   I had to remove myself from the ongoing mental and emotional abuse in my family, so that i could process my feelings and do a better job with explaining things - including more of the factual details and less of the defensive emotions. I am still in this process, and puzzle pieces are still clicking into place, so its going to take some time for me to fully accomplish this. But the short article below shares what appears to be the true core of the mental abuse I experienced in the worse part of my family situation....

In the Root of the Mental Abuse

Just before my sisters launched into fabricating things, in order to convince people that I am insane and should be shoved into an asylum for "treatment," my father had been bragging about me being spiritually "gifted," and my sisters had read the things I'd written about psychiatric pharmaceuticals blocking people's Hearts and spirituality.
   In the fall of 2002, directly after my father started bragging about my prophetic dreams being a "gift" I had, both of my sisters started going to a spiritual meditation type group in Boston. They were trying to be spiritual too, and had even asked me to talk to the group leader and let them know what I thought of her. I talked to the leader and then told my second oldest sister that the leader was skipping over the most important part - the Heart, and that this was not good. After I said this, my sister angrily spit out, "You just don't want us to be spiritual too!" This is the sister that has a habit of projecting her own bad intentions and bad behaviors onto me, and this statement was no exception. The truth was that SHE did not want me to be spiritual, and that SHE wanted to be the one who is. Actually, BOTH of my sisters VERY obviously felt this way. They had always been hatefully jealous of me, but this is when they flew into the darkest depths of it.
   Within a month or so, and after sending her son to get the password to my email account, my sister started playing mean games, which included writing emails from my account, in order to turn my father against me and convince him and other family members that I am insane and should be forced into an asylum. The push for this appears to primarily be both of my sisters hatefully trying to block my spirituality and heart with the "treatment" they heard would do the job. It would also make people think less of me, which has been one of their goals, through most of our lives; first they were jealous of the depth of my heart/compassion and of me being thin and athletic, and then in 2003 it was also the spiritual "gift" that my father boasted of me having.
   As my sisters jealous hate aimed to have me forced into an asylum, one of them even called the psychologist (that I'd been seeing) and tried to turn her against me. Then she told me that I was insane and that my psychologist even agreed with her. But this was proven untrue. The psychologist wisely saw the truth and told me that my sister was a danger to me and that I should stay away from her.
   It appears that they tormented my father, in the emails they wrote from my account, and then showed to him, taunting him about some of his wrong doings - things that I did not even know about, at that time, but that my sisters knew. It was confusing as hell for while there. I didn't even know any of this was happening until my father suddenly called and started angrily blasting me, like he never had before. That was one of the toughest days of my life, not only because I was so blindsided, and blasted for things I did not do and knew nothing about, but mostly because of the pain I heard in his voice. What they did to him, with those emails, was horribly cruel. I told him that none of it was done by me. But he didn't believe me. :-( 
    My father then joined my sister's crusade to convince me and other family members, including my children, that there was something wrong with me - that I was insane. While he was doing this, my sister was repeatedly leaving messages on my phone, in her fake 'nice' voice. Most of the time she said things like, "come back to New Hampshire. We love you and just want to get you the help you need." And literally every time my father and I spoke, he said things like, "Sharon, there is something wrong with you." This went on for about a year and a half - until I changed my phone number and cut off communication with the whole family, in order to prevent them from shoving me into an asylum and from continuing to mentally abuse me. My sisters had the whole family manipulated against me and there was nothing I could do about it, but protect myself. Words can't describe how painful all of this was for me, especially since this all started within a few months after my youngest brother's sudden death.

   
Now, in this year of 2024, both of my sisters have just used my father's death, in order to continue both emotionally and mentally abusing me. They did this in a directive to his will as well as in emails. I feel that the directive was written by my sisters without my father even knowing about it, because he and I had found peace and forgiveness and were getting even closer than we had been, since we'd reunited in 2012, within just one month before the date of this directive. But it is possible that my sisters found out about my father and I getting closer and had again emotionally abused him into going against me and dictated that part of the directive, after re-raising the old buried 2007 issues and possibly also fabricating even more things. Either way, I feel certain that he didn't write that part of the directive of his own free will, even IF he was involved in it at all. This part of the directive has a completely different tone from the parts that he did write by himself and of his own free will - and the tone of the parts that are against me, perfectly match my sisters hate and manipulativeness and ill intentions toward me. I have no intention of contesting the will, in order to get money from them. But I do want the real truth to be known, because I want my sisters to stop succeeding with manipulating people against me, and I want to them to never succeed with forcing me into damaging "treatment" in an asylum.
   The directive states a couple dishonest things that were obviously there just to manipulate my other siblings against me. But the mental abuse part says that I have to get "treatment" for the "illness" (That I've never been diagnosed with, and that my sisters know I do not even really have.), in order for me to have the opportunity to get my inheritance. The directive also states that, even after I get the "treatment," it is left up to my sisters/siblings if I get any inheritance at all. This directive makes it obvious that this is not about me getting the psychological help, (that they and my father knew I had already gotten BEFORE this directive was written) - its obviously about forcing the "treatment" that my sisters know will destroy or block the spiritual "gift" and deep heart that they have been so hatefully jealous of, and obviously still are. This directive actually makes their hate and vengeance and real focus very clear. It spells it right out, literally. 
   I am, of course, not going to give them what they want. Nothing is worth losing my sanity and freedom for...etc. Losing the inheritance does not feel like much of a loss, because I have not expected my sisters to let me have it, since one of the things they VERY OBVIOUSLY did, in the 2003 emails they wrote from my account, was to make my father lose trust in me and choose them, instead of my older brother and I, as executors of his will. My two older sisters have always been into hurting and depriving me and this has not changed and has even gotten worse since 2003; I am still "Just Anotha Cinderella" :-(

And just for the record; natural spirituality is not something that can be learned in any group or class; Its something we are ALL born with and just need to keep our Hearts open to, (or re-open our hearts to) through not doing or consuming things that block our Hearts and instincts and intuition...etc., like I had said from the start. And Heart truly is the most important part of our natural spirituality, because its the part that contains the Light/Love. And re-connecting to that Love/Light is a healing/grieving process, which is actually what my work has been about since the late 1980s - healing and opening our Hearts to deeper levels of Love/Light. The truth is that, through years of hard work with a good psychologist and support groups...etc., I had become the most functional member of my family. My sisters knew and resented this just before they launched into the mental abuse and manipulations that portrayed me as the complete opposite.

   My first full "Embracing Feelings" book, which was completed in 1999, was for my family more than anyone else. I wish my sisters had done the grieving work, and found their hearts, and gained enough love for themselves to stop hating me. But it appears that they both went and stayed in the complete opposite direction. Instead of letting themselves be helped by the first manuscript to my "Embracing Feelings" book, they hated me even more for it. :-(
   The article I wrote a couple decades ago, about us ALL being "Gifted", was actually inspired by my sisters not realizing and honoring their own natural "gifts" so much that they hated me for having mine. It is sad that they are still stuck in that dark place where they seem to unconsciously also hate themselves. Its a VERY sad situation for all of us, and has been a dangerous and devastating and extremely painful situation for me. And I should not be hurt by it anymore, AT ALL, because I already have been far too much and for too long.

I want to remain free and to not continue being hurt by my sisters, or anyone who has been manipulated against me.

P.S. The directive to my father's will also stated that I had to be closer to the family, in order to get an inheritance. And my sister sent two emails, through her daughter's account, both before and after my father's death, which were so severely dishonest and emotionally abusive and mentally abusive that they made sure I would not ever feel comfortable or safe being fully back in the family. These emails BOTH inconspicuously delivered the threat of the family forcing me into an "asylum" for "treatment" if I get closer to it. So they make sure I stay away and then blame me for it, but this sort of misplaced blame, after their manipulations, is nothing knew.